It's out of order

Doing few things or others expecting them from me is just not fair.
Few things are just out of my order. Can't do them at all. It's not
always possible for me to express my feelings to few people and I feel
that it would not matter to them as well. So why to just show off or
waste it, better to keep few things within it's sometimes a better
option. To show it out make me feel very embarrassing as well. So for
few things I'm just an unexpressive dumbo. Happy being so...