Hieeee

 I am feeling so thrilled to be writing again. I feel it's in my soul... To read-to write.. to share and to express my views, my vision towards life. 

These years so many important events has happened in my life.

I got MARRIED! Yes, finally I did. 😂 Had my own struggles with it.. from convincing my parents to adjusting with new life, new roles and new responsibilities.

It's a task on it's own really to be married WOMAN! (I really don't know about men)

Looking forward to sharing my views ahead. Really looking forward to starting slow but to go ahead with it.

Let's see 😊

Do let me know in the comments below what had changed in your life in past 2 years?

#1 Musings

Writing is so many times a great struggle in combination with the hurdle of lack of thoughts at times while at other times lack of interest in typing long words and a few times lack of motivation could pop up.

In the past few years I have gone through all of these phases several times and equal number of times tried to cope up with it however it ain't easy! It is sometimes busyness of work life that takes haul over you and no matter how hard you try to pull off it keeps getting difficult and even if you write the continuity is what matter the most I feel.

Just want to keep this post short and sweet hoping to maintain persistent approach and will try to constantly update, upgrade my writing and improve it while in the process aiming to provide some thoughtful input to the readers to help them in someway (not sure how! but any ways possible adding value matters).

Thought of the day: Keep practicing the thing you want to learn, daily small steps taken could always lead you ahead of the one big attempt you may aim to take.

Learn and share. Ciao! :) 

Goal setting

Goals...
Suddenly I realised it's October, 2016!
Only 3 months left of this year 2016.
Years pass by... Time keeps moving... But am I moving ahead anywhere? Even if the answer to the same is affirmative then am I moving the way I wish to? Am I moving in the direction I wish to? Am I moving ahead on the path which will lead me to the end I wish to achieve?
Have you ever wondered?
At the start of every year we try to follow the tradition of making THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! What was your resolution for the year 2016? Or even if you don't believe in making any such list, still there would have been some idea to figure out your life for this year. So where do you place yourself today? Have you moved ahead?
My answer was NO. Sad. But this answer made me think why there answer is NO? The answer was I did not keep specific goals or if the goals were specific they weren't kept reminded by myself to me.
I just made them, felt happy and that's it. I didn't go back to it but just kept living. Day by day passed and here came a day when it hit me back that 9 months out of 12 are gone. That's not that sad I know but just think if the same statement would be that 50years out of 70years are passed! Now you get the panic attack you will get at that point. Also you have to agree that in that age you will not be able to do each and every thing that you would have done at 20 or 30 or 40.
So... You know now that each day that just pass by unnoticed by yourself is actually an opportunity lost by you to be YOU!
What's the point that I'm trying to make?
Take a pen and paper, or just go to that board you have placed in your room where it's in front of your eye daily, or use your gadget best and put a sticky note on your home screen of phone or laptop.
Make following list for example:
1. Personal Goals
(List of things you want to do just and just and just for yourself. Forget all restrictions you might have, social or financial. Just write what you want yourself to achieve. What you want to learn? What you want to experience? The movie that you missed watching in theatre but thought of watching later,  or may be you downloaded but never watched. That hobby that you always wanted to pursue. That trip that you wanted to go on. That diary that you wanted to write. That morning you wanted to spent meditating... That recipe you wanted to try on your own. List is endless isn't it? Write it down...)
2. Professional Goals
(What and where you want to reach in your professional field? What actions and decisions you need to take to reach there? The position you want to be in? The award you want to win?)

3. Family Goals
(What you want to do for your family and friends? That promise you made to your parents but haven't yet fulfilled. That call you wanted to make or just dropping that text after years to an old friend who was dearest. List it...)

4. Social Goals
(You had thought you would do something for helpless ones. That tree which you wanted to plant. That area you wanted to clean near your surrounding. That awareness you wanted to create. That good deed you wanted to do secretly. List it...)

Add any more categories if you feel like...
But in front of each categories each goal put that specific dates or month or year. You have to keep the target to achieve our it'll end up being an unachieved goal which isn't out motto.
Keep striking of achieved goals....
Keep adding new ones...
Would it be exciting to achieve them?
Go get it...

Mannat

As the train trail towards the destination, Lal Baugh, I couldn't resist thinking of a concept... MANNAT!
The fabulous and the famous festival of India and particularly of Maharashtra has begun, GANESH CHATHURTHI!
Lal Baugh cha Raja has been more so auspicious. Though personally I am believer that God exists everywhere around us and there is no difference but still I would admit it that I do end up visiting Lal Baugh every year. There is indeed a pull that drives me.
The very first time I had gone to Navas(Mannat) que. It took us 18 hours to get the Darshan. We were tired, sleepless, hungry... It's said that every wish of your get fulfilled. Well! No offence but mine didn't get fulfilled. In fact to be honest, mine never got fulfilled ever like this! And when it happened to me for the first time I blamed God for it, when it repeated I slowly started blaming myself too for I may be failing somewhere in my prayers or hopes I felt. But then there were times when I prayed whole heatedly still nothing seemed to work for me.
I was raged! I thought I was being fooled, misguided, cheated and what not!
I became atheist. From a strong believer to no believer of God. Anyone would, isn't it? I wanted to ask God why? But he never seemed to answer. I wanted to know the reason... And long ahead once I got my answer...
He the almighty knows it all. May be we don't need to strive hard over trying to convince him to do some miraculous magic for us but may be we need to divert those hard efforts on getting the thing we want by ourselves. No offence! I'm not saying those who get their wishes fulfilled are faking it or anything negative about it. I respect them and their emotions and spiritual values equally but I'm not the one from that category. And I believe that God has made me powerful enough to get myself everything with my own karma... May be we don't need to even ask for it from him for he the almighty knows it by himself more than we ourselves what we want!
It's also a fact that Gods plans are always better than ours!😊😉
Ganpati bappa morya!

Strange Dilemma...

Whenever I see any beggar it just gives a confused and strange pinching feeling. Whether something could be don't for them? If yes, what? Giving them money, I don't know but I don't prefer until it's someone old or handicapped. It's very difficult to decide what's right and wrong in such a situation.
I wish if there could be something that could be done for them about their long term benefit where they could themselves earn their living with dignity and honour and feed themselves and the family.

I hope and pray that God help them.

Isn't it that there are many people in more difficulty than us? But we're always occupied in our situations. I feel blessed to have had normal body and a good living with almost all luxuries and stomach always full. Thank you God.

Marriage celebration cum school reunion

Saturday morning, 27th Feb, 2016, on the wheels were Prati, Sara, Kanchi, Nutu and me... As we left behind our respective houses, slowly after years it was when we all were together. Heading towards the event of one of our school days friend Suppu's wedding. We all seated comfortable in Prati's Amaze which actually amazed us while she drove. It was so much fun to be together after so many years. Everyone was busy in their lives and different career that they chose post our SSC. Though few of us were in touch but not all. Ideally we should be talking about our lives or at least about the old days but... .... they were yawning. Indeed Saturday weekend is meant to be relaxing while we forced ourselves to get up on usual time of weekdays and get ready. Not that getting ready was a matter of complaint, it could never be for girls 😜 but getting otta bed was surely a pain. The other peer pressure to keep us silent was TO-SAVE-MAKEUP-TILL-THE-LAST-CLICK... yeah we took pains to get ready, look hot and gorgeous in our own ways and the mission was to get the best shot at the reception. There were hours left and we didn't wanted to ruin our morning efforts of hours that we took sacrificing our precious sleep. But girls can never be completely quite as well no matter even if their makeup is at high stake... 😅 The mouth opener was outdated songs that were being played by Prati. Agreed that she gave us a ride but that doesn't mean to give us headache with those songs from 80's or 90's. We made faces and comments came from everyone on each song being played... Fun was getting started. The fact that we were all together was the good reason for us to know that we all were back to the memories of our childhood. While I took different selfie of everyone from the front, Nutu was damn busy with her phone, checking out her makeup, Sara, despite threatening her that her makeup will be ruined doze off, Kancu is a silent one. So me and Prati were only left with chatting. We are school days best buddies. I was more of observing how she was driving. IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME MAN! I said myself. I was completely mesmerised and went to the day dream of myself driving a car and taking my parents and friend out with me.
Well, secondary if they would risk their lives to fulfill my dream. 😂 I do feel it's a great task to drive, that too a four wheeler it's much big task, to manage accelerator, gear, steering, everything along with being present minded on road as well as inside with the passengers, but on the other hand I feel it's what do many people could do so it'll not be that difficult too.😉🙆

As we reached, getting out of car was as if someone put us to furnace, it was HOT. We climbed upstairs and reached the hall. All our eyes wanted to see was our friend Suppu in the bridal look. There was time for it, we were thirsty and there came tray of soft drink and two of us picked the orange ones while others were black. Other girls too wanted orange one, they waited... Came the next guy with only one orange filled glass... Again few waited. Finally next time he brought all orange glasses... Hehehe.... Yeah we love orange one, all of us. We slowly started our philosophies about marriage, the theme effect probably. Few said they hate it, few said they will wait for it, few happy about it while few with no thought about it. We all had our own perception about it. Though we all agreed... EK DIN KARNI PADEGI-NO MATTER WHAT! 😂 This is India after all.
Our bride came and like every bride, she was looking the most beautiful. It was her day indeed. She was the heroine of the event. The traditional Maharashtrian wedding started. We had other three Maharashtrian buddies in the group. Sitting next to Prati, I was asking her about the meaning of the ceremony, though less knowledge we have about the ceremony but I was excited about the whole event. I love to see the marriage  ritual being performed. I just get divine feeling. As it's said, "MARRIAGES ARE MADE IN HEAVEN BUT PERFORMED ON EARTH." So was this ceremony taking place on earth in front of us. The wishes came straight from the heart while witnessing the wedding for our friend,"Love is wonderful to be fallen in,
But more pleasurable is the journey to live that love within...
The divinity of a marriage have thrived from heaven to earth,
May your life blossom in this relationship ahead in this path..."
We all showered the colourful rice slowly on the couple on it being said, "SHUBH MANGAL SAVADHAN" by the Pandit. It felt funny and cute to do like that. I've seen and heard about it on TV before.
After the ceremony of SAATH PHERE the bride and groom went to get ready for the reception. In between for those who got bored and were yawning we clicked lots of selfie and Nutu clicked best pics of our newly married couple. They not only looked beautiful but were very notorious and looked very happy together.
Our stomachs were roaring for the food. Meanwhile stepping towards it we met one of our school teacher. She was very happy to see us all grown up from little girls to young ladies. Indeed she don't recognise us but it's not expected either. Faces are always remembered though names might get forgotten.
We ate our stomach full. The food was delicious. Sara and I had more of our focus on the desert, being it's fan. It was Strawberry Basundi, a new experience.   YUMMMMMMM....
We stepped back to the reception, alive for the click on the stage. There was long que which we all hate but couldn't help. Doing masti together diverted our focus and we reached the couples quicker than we thought. We congratulated the couples. Our friend who looked gorgeous from far shocked us from near view. MAKEUP over and above required was put up. This became the gossip amongst us as we drove back...
We fought for the next song to be played, we cheered up for even the saddest songs.
Most exciting number was, "CHADHI MUJHE YAARI TERI AISI JAISE DARU DESI... We shouted the lyrics in sync as it was what we felt. Even before this trip ends we had more plans being made. Our dream being making road trip to GOGOGOGOGOAAAAAAAA...
Without much ado everyone dragged me for movie NEERJA. I wanted to see it but I had told home will be back at evening which got into late evening as movie ended around 8pm! I didn't wanted to see this movie on that day, because we had such blasting day and watching a serious movie like this will shift the mood from north pole to south I knew. But we wanted to see a movie together and it was it. We were all in shock as it ended. I MISSED MY MUM so much during whole movie. I wanted to hug her tightly. I LOVE HER THE MOST... MMMMUUUAAAHHHH MOM 😘

We hugged  each other bye and the day became one of the most memorable one to be recorded in here on my blog.😊

SOMETIMES BE SAD!

Agreeing and accepting as well as following positivity in life, the difficult phase comes when life is unfair to you and all your positivity seems to drain for a moment and you don't want to think even a single thing that is good but want to focus and accept clearly and truly that YES, MY LIFE IS SUCKING!
 I GUESS SOMETIMES ITS OKAY TO GIVE UP ON LONG PRECONCEIVED HOPES AND ACCEPT THE FAILURES YOU'VE GOT... SOMETIMES THE BAD MAKES FEEL GOOD WHEN THOUGHT OF... SOMETIMES JUST THINKING OF ALL THE THINGS THAT HAS SCREWED YOU REAL TIME SINCE LONG BUT YOU'VE TRIED TO IGNORE THEM JUST BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO BE POSITIVE... SOMETIMES IT FEELS BETTER TO SHED TEARS... SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIGHTER TO WET PILLOW... SOMETIMES IT FEELS GOOD TO CRIB ABOUT EVERYTHING.. SOMETIMES IT BECOMES IMPORTANT TO BE SAD, TO ACCEPT YOUR TRUE FEELINGS...

P.S.: Not ALWAYS, just SOMETIMES!

Resentment

Why it so happens that the more you try to keep patience the more you feel it being tested?
Reaching a juncture of life where everything looks only blur and there seems no correct path nor the road you've taken for so long seem to take you anywhere and you don't know if there is any alternate route available or if you can even try on new way or either you should discover one!
This confusion... It suffocates sometimes!
And worst part... ONLY YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH... Even if you try to tell about it to someone, they either underestimate it and could not relate to your feelings or they try to give you the sympathy which just don't help anyways.
*SIGH*
Over the top... YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IF EVER SOMETHING WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER...

It feels damn funny when you look back at your life and feel that life has changes so drastically and yet ironically you get the feeling that nothing has changed since so long and life is just PAUSED!

Friendship Day! ;-)

Had a lovely day today on friendship day by meeting all me BFFs.
Sometimes life feels so blessed despite all ODDs all because I'm surely blessed to have lovely people in my life. They help me, inspire me, be with me as pillar and never let me fall, be with me at all times, even if I forget to contact without any ego make efforts to be in touch.
So many things I've learned from them and learning more...
I am sure they too feel same for me hence I am part of their life. :-)
Thank you GOD for all the friends you've given me. They are one of best people in the world! :-) 

Forgiveness...

A scene on a daily soap, HIT ME HARD deep inside...  Couldn't stop from sharing it at this place which is so much MINE... ☺

THE HUSBAND returns after years ever since he got frustrated and left his WIFE & a very young daughter of 2-3 year old who were not only dependent on him for finances but also for LOVE and expected a normal life. After he returns the wife goes into the flashback and remembers how she BEGGED to him to not leave them alone.

So strange i felt after watching the scene... 
A PERSON decides to leave everything because he is frustrated of everything and everyone around. He wanted to get rid of EVERYONE and be alone. BUT when he was alone he understood what he had lost!
Well this theory is altogether different but what KNOCKED me was, HE RETURNED BACK, he returned to home, to parents, to wife, to child, to normal life. He returned to a second chance... BUT....  But do he deserve it? This is what strike me... 
Two thoughts...
First, NO, he should be abandoned. He left coz he thought he had choice whether he wanted to give love and affection that was his first duty towards his family. So now his family should also get equal right to choose, him or no more of him.
Second, YES, he returned coz he LEARNT life isn't about leaving the battle field and running away but about fighting the battle together with the help of loved ones. He learned the LESSON.

Second one mature understanding but equally difficult to implement. First one a general perception or line of action. It's always easy to follow general perception BUT it's not a cake walk to do second one.
Funny fact is, IT'S MUCH MORE EASIER TO HAVE A THIRD PERSON VIEW, like am doing right now, AND CONCLUDE ON WHAT COULD BE DONE OR WHAT SHOULD BE DONE BUT ACTUAL FACT IS ONE WHO BEARS ONLY KNOWS WHAT TO BE DONE...

Well one thing is foresure LIFE ISN'T THAT EASY... 😂

Facing the situation

The difference between saying and doing is when you face the situation you come to know it....  😂

Commitment

Sometimes, when I look at few couples who seems weird in their personalities and from outer perspective they look incompatible, well you may think I'm being judgemental about them but being an observer indeed you do judge, but when you look at their years of relationship with each other the saying looks to have been proved true, true love lies in souls.
I guess what it takes for a long lasting, happy and successful relationship is not COMPATIBILITY but ACCEPTABILITY.
We all agree that No one is perfect. But when we come to choosing or life partner we do end up expecting him/her to be perfect for us. We look at compatibility rather then the acceptance level.
Generally if you'll see, we have so many relations that we share in our day to day life. We have firstly our Parents then our siblings then cousins, other relatives and friends. Out of all only our friends are the one whom we choose. But those who are with us from always and will be with us forever are our family members and you know the strangest fact? We get our family by birth. We don't get choice. From starting we know he is my dad, she is my mom, he&/she is Bro&/Sis and so on. We never judge them. I've never heard anyone saying, I wish he was my father instead of my dad or she was my mother or so...  But when it comes to spouse, at least in today's generation it is like, so DAMN strange when I hear relationships break coz people are not happy with each other and end up with divorce and then remarriage. I'm not against divorce or remarriage but it's like when you feel like you have an option with you, people are tend to exercise the same i guess. Whereas, a true relationship is accepting others flaws and loving the person more for his/her qualities than trying to throw them out of your life and look for those qualities in someone else and then get involved with them.
Likewise I guess everyone should end up marrying every other person, because we all are unique and everyone has flaws not to forget.

Uff, these social life issues, they're not at all easy to handle... 🙆

Nothing is best forever!

The other day one of my friend looking at the newly constructed building exclaimed, WOW! I wish I would have had home in such a best building 🏢. Then the another friend said, you've not seen many good buildings yet it seems. This isn't the best one, in fact not even one of the best to what I've seen. To this conversation of theirs I wondered something, is there anything or anyone as Best forever and everything?
This best should be the best by all means and for everyone and everything. I don't think if such a thing can be possible! What makes something or someone BEST in our eyes is OUR PERCEPTION! And everyone has different perception/outlook for different matters. No two minds think alike.
Hence it's just within our mind that something or someone is BEST not otherwise it is true...
Similarly, if I apply the same theory to our life then, if whatever we do in our life if it doesn't makes others feel that that thing is good for us then it's their PERCEPTION and not that we're doing something wrong! 😛😞
Hence LOVE 😍 the things you do and be confident 💖👍✌

Lost in Transit

Sadly, 😯 I lost my two blog posts due to the error in the app of the Blogger!😠
What yaar, thought once came and imprinted cannot be retrieved back same as it is! 😧😰

31st wedding anniversary of my Parents

Today Mom and Dad completed 31 years of marital experience with each other.
💑👫
Awesome isn't it? 😃
Indian wedding are mostly arranged by their families. In previous generation they use to meet their mates only after marriage. So strange, now at least people get choice to decide and yet they seems to be having difficulty in keeping up with their relationship.
May be people were more patient then and now more rightful. Now no one wish to do any compromise for the whole life. But isn't TRUE LOVE all about SACRIFICE too?
Well, I can write for hours on this topic I guess but would like to over flow my thoughts some other day. 😉😁

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM DAD! 😊😘
LOVE YOU BOTH a lot. 😍💝

Listening to inner voice

Sometimes you want to be all alone at a quite place where there is NO one talking to you and NO one whom you got to give reply but you can talk to and listen to your own inner voice and try to make peace with yourself!😌😇

Back on TRACK!

Hi all! 😊
I know it's been too long than anyone including myself would have ever thought that I will be away from my passion, BLOGGING!
NEVER MIND! 😊
I never cease to SURPRISE, neither myself nor did to others. 😜
Writing with my #samsungtab3 is indeed difficult for me comparatively, lack of practice indeed.
Never mind, am very thoughtful of returning to my blog with the same passion as before.
Leaving the explanation & apology apart, because don't wanna get into those details. But am back coz now I thought I will be able to justify my comeback rather I should have wrote for sake of writing! 😉
Tons of thanks for the followers/readers of my blog for bearing my thoughts as well as my writing, BRAVE YOU ALL ARE! 😂 Hope you all are ready to bear more?! 😉😜

Looking forward to pouring my ideas on this wall more frequently! 😊
See ya soon 🙋

Living to live more...

Sometimes you just love to be on your own... No known person around you to talk to but your voice which you listen to. Just your heartbeat, your brain, your body and soul that you think about and also about others but not listening to someone or talking to someone but to yourself. You and your thoughts and the cool breeze coming from window of the train at night. Everything out of window seems running back but the true fact is you are moving ahead towards your destination.
At that moment you don't even wish to listen to songs but sing your own song, from deep inside your heart.
Analysing your life, analysing yourself, your character, your values, your true self, your day, your surrounding, your wishes, your dreams, your desires, your accomplishments, your life's sweet memories. Collecting all positive thoughts and memories and making bunch of it and tying it tight and keeping it in the centre of your heart and mind that gives you peace, self satisfaction, pride, happiness now and you save that bunch of happiness for future and keep adding to it more of the happiness.

Life is so amazing that when I listen about MOKSHA, I feel I want to relive life and understand it more and more and become better person in every life than I was in previous one. And may be after I have fulfilled all my dreams may my soul rest in peace. Until then I wish to live life to have the truth in me, to have the best character, to learn each day new values and culture for my betterment as a person, to get love as much as I can and to give love more than I get, to live life in such a way that my heart and soul live at peace from inside, not for money, not for luxury, not for hate, not for revenge, not for people, not for success, not for anything else but for my learning...
I bow to my life in contention and happiness, for beauty it has and for it's love and blessings.

Crossword! :-*

In the mall, while roaming around suddenly I saw THE CROSSWORD! :O
I was attracted to it automatically like an iron to magnet. I went inside and soon went CRAZY! Oh My God, so many books and that too ORIGINAL. There were many my favourite books which I've already read in the past, then there were few which I wish to read and also found one that I'm currently reading. Looking at those books it made me feel what true reading is I've never actually experienced. True reading would be reading these books. I spent few hours there, looking with amusement at all sections. Also selected few books which I would buy sooner than anything else for myself I'll purchase.
Wow! My brothers literally pulled me out of the store, like you drag a child out from toys store. I really didn't felt like coming out...
Even while writing about it I can feel the pleasure that one can have while reading those amazing books. Neat, new, tidy, original, superb. Even with it's touch you fall in love with the book!

Wow....
I'm loving it! :-*

I wish to read almost all good books ever written in this world.
:-D

Na Ghar ke na Ghaat ke

In fulfilling others expectations and desires you forget your own expectations with you, your own desires and yet no one seems satisfied with you!
It feels you should not care about others expectations with you at least you'll be happy satisfying yourself.
Nahi toh na Ghar ke aur na Ghaat ke! :-D