B +ve

Day before yesterday, the news broke to me when I visited www.icai.org that CA final results are on 15th January, 2014. Indeed I was in shock, for expected date was around 20th Jan. Just 5 days remaining for the verdict, I counted!
I didn't purposely think about it but still my subconscious was processing something. It took toll on me and my head started aching and I started feeling sick. I felt depressed. Didn't talk to anyone for 2 days, did not message anyone, didn't eat properly, didn't watch my favourite TV show which I never miss, didn't talk on phone, didn't go to walk, didn't go out with friends, didn't listened any song, didn't watch any movie. I hated everything around me. I wanted to be alone.
When in depression, I don't know about others, but usually I feel very sick and sleepy. I literally sleep days and nights together. My family is now use to with this behavior of mine. Two days everyone entertained my strange behavior and along with them I too worried how days will pass by like this?
Today morning I woke up at 8! I missed my morning walk like past 2 days. I didn't do breakfast. I got news that our maid will not be coming, so I had to help Mom with cleaning thing. I decided to complete work early in morning. Thankfully my headache was gone, after all I slept for 2days and nights. I worked and worked. I cleaned everything and every corner of house. I did extra cleaning too, I washed all clothes, I cleaned cabinets, I dusted all furniture, I cleaned windows, etc...
In the end I was tired and decided to eat something. Mom was impressed by my work and she blessed me that may I get positive result this time and I become CA! And I told Mom, that indeed I am going to clear it this time and that is why I worked so hard today coz after I become CA I'll be too busy with my job that I might not find time to help you at household chores.

Mom smiled at me. :-)

Suddenly all anxiety and nervousness ceased and I told to myself that I have to keep my positivity intact. I had kept myself positive in so tough times, during my studies and exams too but real test is now. I've to keep myself positive and hence each second I've to think positively and have confidence in myself and faith in GOD!

Now I'm no more tense about what'll happen and what not. All I know is, it'll happen best way for me...
Like always, this time too, there is best in stores for me! :-)