Pyaar-ka-panchnama

After a long time happened to see a movie which made some sense. In fact simply loved it. Men are indeed poor fellows. Womens, please stop nagging all the time and also your emotional atyachar. In the name of friendship too much happens and still ends being nothing. Relations are tough to get into but toughest to carry on with it, to maintain
them. Feeling luck to be single, more than me others are more lucky that I have been single always! ;)
Life is easy in the present but gets tougher and toughest as we reach it's higher stages, no matter in whichever regard, carrier, studies, relations, etc etc. everywhere.
A good watch, enjoyed it very much. Hardly, I have like hyped ones, but this one was real gem. :)
Now I see, why few people are so choosy about being into relationships. Better as well, I guess. You should do things when you feel that it is right time to get into it, when you feel that you will be able to give it a right direction. And not when the world around thinks about it being perfect time, rationally. After all it's matter of two lives and in larger sense two families. And you don't always get chance to take a U turn.
Happy Singlehood :)

Interesting Reading 5

‎" Be with somebody who knows what they have when they have you..."

Interesting Reading 4

No One can Destroy Iron, but its own RUST can...
Likewise, No One can Destroy Us, but our MINDSET can...
Only our Positive THOUGHTS can change our Life...!!!

If I don't, then even you should not...

If I don't expect you to come on time then please don't you expect me to wait for you.
Ask my friends, how worst I'm if you were to meet me and are late! Either you will not find me waiting there or if you are lucky enough to find me, you will very soon regret it and realize how worst it will going to be in future.
I don't bother for reasons! You know your certainties and uncertainties so consider them and plan accordingly, but don't you dare to make me wait, especially at public places like railway station or bus stops or road sides.
Indeed, I give them 5 minutes float, this much is allowable more than this, sorry but I can't. Not in this life! :) :p

The 'D' factor!

Is something strange with this word 'D'? I'm wondering! Let it be any train, let it be any time, you will never find platforms of Dadar and Dombivali empty. In fact, I doubt how people there manage it? :) Thank God, I don't have to experience either of them!
Touch wood! ;)
Enjoy, travelling :)

Yippie!! :))

Wow, I thought that I've lost it all, in fact I actually lost all hopes of getting them back. Remember? My pics which got deleted few days back and I was so sad about it. :( and I thought that I'll never get them back, that was the only copy I had. But all of sudden yesterday when I again connected my USB to my PC I saw that they just got hidden features because of the virus attack. But I have safely recovered them all. Oh, I'm so so so happy :) in fact I'm very very very happy. :))
But this is something which mostly happens with me, many a times when I loose all hopes of getting the things I've lost, all of sudden something happens which doesn't happens in my expected time of hope and when I feel that now it'll never happen and when I almost come out of it, back to normal world after all cribs and cries. One day out of blue moon, I get it all. Indeed, this is a trivial thing but few times few things happened were huge and memorable one.
Hmm... I'm confused, if I should quickly loose hope so that they can come quickly when I've lost the hope ;) or I should remain hopeful that they will come back to me no matter a bit late but they will certainly come? ;)
For the time being, I'm happy :)

Interesting Reading 3

If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything!
Indeed... :)

Interesting Reading 2

Only undertake those things which you can do in an excellent fashion!
There are no prizes for average performance.

You don't own it privately, seriously not!

Many a times I notice that people are use to give their free and wise advice to others who are mostly not interested, in fact all the times not interested. :p
But people are people! I hate it most when regular commuters in train shouts or taunts to those coming with their family as to not to travel in office hours. I mean, who are they to tell them what they should and what they shouldn't do? They travel daily that does not mean that they own it, it's okay if you calmly advice them but then they seriously got no right to shout when they face problems with them. It's their choice, after all India is a democratic country! ;) We all are free to do what we want to, the way we want to. But they feel that, since they are regular commuters they own it and only they can travel in trains. Agreed, that it's risky to travel with kids and family during rush hours but then even they can be helpless about it. Secondly, we should not forget that they are the best persons to think good about themselves so let them think about themselves rather than you taking too much pain of thinking of their well being. Please don't mind, but even if they were to travel for the first time and are to regret about it, then by the time you tell them to travel during free hours (I doubt if they exists?) they themselves would have realised  this by now. So live your life, don't peep into others nor you are required to opine on things happening are  good or bad. Remember even some day you were a fresher, indeed, isn't it?

It's in the blood

For few things I feel that they are in my blood, like punctuality, presenting things in the best way, doing work with at most perfection, cleanliness, my tantrums for things I want in a certain way I want it that way no matter what happens, unbiased (mostly), my commitments towards my work and people matter to me or I matter to them, most precious are my planning and my handwriting, there are many things but these are my wealth and I'm proud of they being in me since my birth and hope they be with me till I die... :)

Interesting Reading 1

Money can't buy love, that's why people steal hearts! :)
How cool, isn't it? ;)

Words of appreciation...

Firstly, delay in appreciation is highly regretted. But as they say,"BETTER LATE THAN NEVER." So I thought that lets do it now.I'm the kind of person who would always appreciate the hard efforts taken by others. Today this blog post is particularly for all those people whose efforts are never been recognized, instead they are just being ignored. Ignoring is not good, I'm against it. Just appreciate the efforts they take in, the risk they take.
For instance, it takes so much of hard efforts to stare at the beauties all around. There are so many and you have only these two eyes, God is so cruel! I know. Still you some how manage to take out time and try to stare them continuously, where ever possible, however possible. Let it be through a rare view mirror in an auto rickshaw or while walking on the road side or while standing on bus stand, there are so many instances. You give them your time, the precious one, your attention, your thoughts, which you should have given to your wife still you give to others, who just don't bother about these efforts of yours and just ignore you. How rude of them! I know.
You stand on the door of the train risking your life to see those beauties, to appreciate them but then again even there, they ignore you. Poor you! I know. You sell out your conscience, you sell out your inner self consciousness and just feel the happiness of the present. You do injustice to your wife/daughter/mother for them and they, what the hell they think of themselves? They merely ignore you. Is their justice left in this world or not? I could imagine how hard it becomes to get in the crowd and try to take the advantage of it. You need brain to think about it all the times. You need to be always active to know when, where and how you could get them close to you, wherein they'll feel insecure, it may even pain them from inside but what have you got to do with it? You've already forgotten about your wife/daughter/sister/mother so can't they forget about their pain? They have to!
After all you are a practical person who will not ask for something permanent but mere few moments pleasure which could make your day, satisfy you. But why should they be so impractical to get serious about it? Why should they feel bad about it? Can't they forget when it's all over? They should! After all you just did something which will not harm them permanently. Just matter of few moments. But I know people got no sense of respect for others feelings and sacrifices. You think so much about them always, in and out. And they, what did they do? Again ignore you, and you still continue trying your luck with others in the hope that at least this time you will get something. Like wise you very well know that they are the weak, who could not raise their voices, cannot oppose it but will bear it all. And since you had taken the risk and efforts so you are bound to get the returns, isn't it? The law of life,"risks and returns go hand in hand". So if you take that risk you should be given the returns you desire and they are the dumbs who could hardly raise their voices and you know it very well. How smart of you! So you take the advantage of this weakness. You do, right! You know, that they will think thousands and millions of time before blaming on you or to tell you to behave properly and also that they'll think that may be it's not your fault but there is crowd and it's normal that they are getting pushed, that your hand falls on them. But who knows what the truth is? Only you. Even if you are to get caught you can claim those reasons which can be easily proved. See I know. It takes brain to think and efforts to do, in spite of knowing that there may be few who would not appreciate your efforts. How difficult it is to still keep trying continuously? I know.
Why the hell they need to be so loyal to their soul. Why can't they sell it like you do? Huh, few people are too much. But then more than that there are few more odd species who in spite of belonging to your community don't do so. Because they got no guts. I know. Instead they come and interrupt you when the few of them are those complain and protest. So you need to analyse this as well, you need to careful with this too. Oh! I know. How difficult it is, poorestest you. I pity.

Please stop doing all this, it might not give you that pleasure than the pain it gives to them. Be humans as I have said. Stop this terrorism, please. In fact it's worst than terrorism, at least they kill others forever but you kill them each moment, each day. Every where, every time they are in fear, insecure.


P. S.: 
1.  For there are few good people present in my life that I haven't started hating all people belonging to this section.
2. This post is not on blaming to the whole community but then the majority are so, and the law of average gives disadvantage to those who are good. 
3. But those belonging to it must not forget that  "EVERY BALANCE SHEET TALLIES"

Changing me in ME...

Looking at me I constantly wonder, how much I've changed over the period!
These days I'm simply talking less - listening more, speaking less - reading and writing more (you see! ;)), eating less - drinking more (water, I mean! :p), arguing less - accepting more (for the time being), debating less - keeping silence more, smiling less - musing more, joking less - wondering more, less stability - travelling more, less entertainment - studying more, demanding less - accepting the situations demand more, expecting less - loving more, hurting myself - caring others more, being less impatient - waiting more, doubting less - trusting more, less excuses - more of acceptances, less strict - more friendly, less listening to songs - more singing inside me, less time pass - more reading useful stuffs, less sleep - more life, less questions to others - more for me, less cribbing - more acceptance of facts, less complaints - more patience for better times to come, less anger - more calmness, etc etc etc...

Law of DMU!

Law DMU (Diminishing Marginal Utility) : as you get hurt continuously the impact of next hurt is at diminishing rate even though it's intensity can be more.
Means, more you get hurt, you get use to it and then beyond a point you are just indifferent as to whatever happen to you, you take that hit, remain inexpressive and keep living...

Sister concern

1. Third standard best friend A had a sister, they were twins :)
2. Sixth standard (new school) new best friend P, had a sister, class monitor S and a one nice classmate P had a sister.
3. Tenth standard (old best friend and myself got different divisions) made new friend P who too had a sister.
4. Tenth standard, in classes got other best friend S (she is still bestest, we prove the saying that opposites attract! We were together till twelveth and CPT, still sometimes make plans and meet) got a sister.
5. While going home from class during PCC, had a company of a girl and she too had sisters that too two!
6. After CPT got new friend B, who have a sister, she is currently my best friend.
7. Currently I'm walking back home with this girl P, who also have sister that too two!
8. My coarticle-cum-classmate have a sister (even they are twins)
9. At office three madams all have sisters.
10. At classes the girl sitting on the next bench and one on previous
bench both girls have sister.
Don't know why? But this coincidence is unbelievable! I was the one who always wished to have a sister. Instead of a younger brother I wanted a younger sister, though I love my bro but still I always wished to have a sister and look all my best friends almost all of them got good reasons to make me feel jealous of them as all of them have sister. What a strange thing to notice!
Never mind, I have two brothers! You see Rakshabandhan is near! ;) :D

In depression :(

In search of chullu bhar pani... Do you have it?

How should I feel?

Inserted the USB to upload my pictures. Soon there was notification asking me to scan my memory card. I accepted it. Scan completed and threats were detected I clicked clean and the anti-virus deleted all those files. And then I realised what has happened actually. All my
pictures the only copy which I had, got deleted with this action. Got no way in which I can recover them now. They were one of the best I had. Though, I'm still alive to get clicked but then I cannot be happy thinking this as well. Nor I'm able to be sad for such nonsense thing happened to me. Better from next time I keep backup of things I feel important and are worthy to keep for future use or reference. Oh! Can't be more calm on this nor can do anything. How helpless I'm in this regard? You can't even imagine. I just love getting clicked and somehow managed to get them but now all that's gone, evaporated somewhere from where it cannot be recovered, can never get them back. Who was the person who said nothing is impossible? Come to me, I seriously need your help in getting few things which according to me are impossible and even God cannot give it to me, and they are IMPOSSIBLE and will never happen. Then why did he said so? Because I
was not there to question him... :D Better people stop saying such statements in front of me. It's irritating sometimes to listen somebody saying that,"Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE" or "The word IMPOSSIBLE itself says I M POSSIBLE." What rubbish, huh! Can you prove? is what
I'm going to ask the next time somebody throw these fake statements in front of me. So, Beware! :p

Take it, I don't care much!

I can't stop myself from laughing on few things people do especially for such trivial matters like an audit assignment. I believe in this saying that, "you always get what you deserve and not what you desire."
My boss gave me an audit which is a big one compared to others and he said me to handle it. I agreed as well, now to one of my colleague was a bit uncomfortable and got very insecure with it. This was not the first time that she had this feeling for I got an assignment. She didn't talk to me, I knew what the reason could be. I was normally interacting to her I neither tried to ask her as to what has happened nor tried to console for her feelings. The next day she went to the boss and said him that she want the other audit which was the next big after the one which I got. I was just observing the scene and the way she had asked it. Boss for the moment said that we'll see it later but she literally said this that I could not even imagine in my dreams that "No, Sir I know you will give all audits to her but even I want to learn!" The pitch of her voice was above the level for any boss to bear still my boss is a humble person and said, okay I want the work to be done and doesn't matter who does it. I was as usual looking at the interaction and when my boss looked at me I just gave him a smile to which I meant, it's okay with me don't worry. As of she had been to audits even more than me because last year due to severe Jaundice I missed out almost all the audits and she was the one who did them plus I had never done the audit which she had asked for. So may be she was right in guessing that probably my boss would have given it to me. But then that would be his wish isn't it? It's he who would analyse and fill in the requirements of the work. I got no problem, as such, to me all this is very little things to fight for with anybody or to be sad about. The saddest part is that she had that insecurity against me and actually snatched it. Never mind, as I said take it away as much you can, they might not give me that much pleasure as much insecurity or sadness it gives to you.

So better you get it. Probably your sadness got more value than my not feeling anything much about it. I was still normal with all that happened and then she had this apology that she wanted to do it so she had asked for it. I said it's okay if you want I can say no to the one I've got, it just doesn't matter to me more and for that matter I haven't done that as well which you had asked for so in a way even I'm losing, isn't it? But then you cannot always get what you wish. And likewise if you are talking about experience thing, then what if you would not have been here still you would not have got all this. We actually forget the big picture and live in moments rather die for them. Huh, as I said few things are out of order and it includes this as well that I'll let things come to me but will never snatch it from anybody nor can behave so. But surely she had made me realise that it's high time that I must realize this that people will first think of themselves and should not feel bad that they don't care for you and could be sad knowing you getting more that themselves. Can remember the 3 Idiots dialogue that said that, it's difficult to know that you have scored less but more difficult is to know that your friend has got a rank. As of this I never believed into it but now have to or rather I should start accepting it. Though I have always been happy when my friends managed to clear in the 1st attempt but I could not and that time they were not comfortable in talking to me or expressing their happiness of passing but then I took the efforts and talked to them congratulated them from my heart and was really happy that they could, even though I could not. Because that's everyone luck and hard work, is what I feel. Feels good that I am who I am.

Disclaimer: In no way intending to prove myself superior nor trying to prove others small but an incident to remember so that don't get hurt the next time something of such sort happen to me in this long life. Surely everyone will think of them first. Better I should stop expecting from them the feelings and emotions I have for them.

Though I'm indifferent in my behavior after all this. I'm the same ME no matter who do what!!!!   :)

Please help yourself

You should have control on you. I mean things you do should be in moderation and nothing should be in extreme! Anything in extreme is bad, let it be your love or anger.
Love in extreme becomes obsession and the person about whom you are obsessed may not feel comfortable being with you for long time. So love but give space as well, wherever needed so that the person don't feel that he/she is bound by you and living with you is formality or compulsion. Instead, love them, give them space to do what they want to and then see they will enjoy being with you as you set them free to do what they wish to. They will be happy always in your company. Sometimes spaces helps in increasing closeness. Remember? Duriyaan bhi hai zaroori... (song from break ke baad) but even this should be in moderation. You should not be away for such a long time that the person start living without you, nor you should stop interfering or sharing things with each other that you lose the trail of things happening in each others life. Have a balanced blend of everything in right proportion so that the taste of life can be perfect. Add salt and spice as per your requirements, taste but it should tasty in the end, spicy, very very spicy and sometimes sweet as well... ;)
Secondly few people can't control their anger. Even I can't, likewise I'm always calm but when it hit me hard or water level rises above my head then I burst out. I'm the most short tempered person in my whole family, even my Parents fear my anger. (not proud of it or something but it's in a way embarrassing for me.) You can't be proud of your limitations, isn't it? Though few people can, there are always exceptions to the general rule. :p
Mostly I just shut my mouth when I'm angry, I feel it's better not to utter words which would make me regret  later. And it works very well as well, when I'm silent people around could smell the unusual and sometimes apologise for their mistakes. Where as if you just insult others or speak harsh words when you are angry, later on you will have to apologise for you have hurt them. See, how things turn upside down. Where you were angry on others wrong deeds here you yourself end apologizing. That's why I hate getting angry. Even if you don't apologize the guilt kills you from inside. Secondly, there are few people who could not control their anger as well as could not control it's intensity as well. Once they are angry, you are dead then. They will whole day make you listen for your wrong done. But even this is not good, mistakes are done by humans. You can always make people realise that what they are doing is wrong, getting angry will just make them feel that you have started and now will not stop. So they might lose all their interest in trying to understand your point. You may be doing this out of great concern for them but in this way it'll not serve the purpose and they will feel that your mood is bad on something else so you are taking it all out on them, which may not be the case always. So, get angry but control yourself so that you just don't go on and on with it but make out reasonable points and stop, give them time to think on your words. If you continuously get angry starting with one thing and continue will all different issues, you will end up confusing the person about what the real matter is, why you are actually angry? They will lose all their interest in trying to understand your valid points and all your efforts will be waste by the end of it. Some people are very lovely but because of this one limitation of getting angry uncontrollably set off all their kindness. I know it should not be so. You should not be judgmental by one thing, but that's the way it goes. So please, control yourselves. Have control on you. Let your loved once love you for your love and concern for them. Take proper efforts to explain yourself and your feelings than getting misunderstood on a limitation. Think on it, you might be able to accept my points.

Test of Patience

Life test you in various ways. And test of patience is like one of its test amongst the all tests. I've been constantly put on this test. Sometimes it's about getting something, sometimes about fulfillment of few of my dreams, sometimes about controlling my anger, sometimes about achieving something, sometimes it's about learning something, sometimes it's merely seeing somebody, sometimes about waiting for something to end may be tough times in life, sometimes about getting a reply from a person. It could be any.
You can check out if you are having enough patience or not by merely this test. Eat a chocolate (it can be any, or if you would have analysed that which one you find difficult to keep it in your mouth for long duration. For me, any can do. Yeah, means I find it difficult to keep in at both cases, soft one and hard one) and try to see if you can wait until it's finished on it's own. Hard to do. The simpler it sounds, the tougher it is. You may not even know when you would actually start chewing it and gulp it but a patient person will be able to taste each moment and let it finish on it's own and will not chew it. Sometimes I am able to keep until it's very small but towards the very end lose out that control and finish it off. And sometimes I don't even realise when I start chewing it and after I do so I remember that I was supposed to test my patience but the result is out by the time I remind myself about the test! :D
Seriously try it, it's fun as well as a good test to perform.
But keeping patience is very important, in fact very very important. For few things to get in life you need to wait have faith in it till it comes to you. As they say,"Sabra ka fal mitha hota hai." I believe into it. :)
for the time being waiting for few things first for some body's reply don't know if he knows or not but then he hadn't replied me, I seriously can't take silence as some answer. But I'll wait someday he'll reply. Let's see. It's been too long though but then can't go and ask him again as well you see few things are out of order. Never mind as I said life is very well teaching me to have patience. He seems to be one of his agent in this regard. Secondly, eagerly waiting for my Mom to get me another partner. (hello, don't get me wrong, okay! Did I say life partner? Then, don't get excited you will not find any such thing here :D) I'm begging to get me a good cell phone. Though the bill is been passed and accepted by the Home Ministry but then they haven't yet came out with a date of implementation. When will she buy me a new phone the one I want. Now, since it's costly will have to wait na! The sweetness it has will make me wait for equal time to prove that saying, I feel. Chalo, never mind I'm waiting for it. Right time will bring in right occasions. :)

Somebody convince them

Just today got gyaan (read, kind advice!) from teachers that start studying, it will better if done now or else it'll be too late and look at the conditions at home. Promise me first that you will believe, you have to, please. I mostly speak truth only. My parents, specifically Mom, she just don't understand how difficult it is, to clear C.A. in first attempt or for that matter become a C.A.! She just don't let me study how much I wish to. She feels I'm doing too much that I go to articleship at Mumbai and travel so much, then go to class and after almost 12to13 hours of outing (read out of home) when I come she want me to take rest. I LITERALLY have to beg that please let me study! Please. :(
Actually had a repeat telecast of the lecture at home for my parents! :D
I wish if I would have recorded the lecture I would have saved time. :p Never mind, it's just that my Parents  love me so they feel whatever I'm doing is super normal which is not the case and when I explain this to them that every person in this course is doing what I do, even I feel that yes, I haven't yet done something unusual as on? All this is what everyone do. Hmm... Got to give more efforts than what I'm doing now.
Chalo, todays convincing is over now I can study all night! I mean till I fall down ;)
Happy reading! Me Happy Studying!!!!!!!!! :))))

Amar Prem

Wow! Amazing movie.
Few relations are unexplainable. Women have great power to forgive, love and bear things. And the famous dialogue,"Pushpa I hate tears." Finally happen to see the movie. Have always heard this dialogue today saw it. Songs are too amazing especially, bada nathkhat one. Superb.
A good watch this one as well. Hmm... Seems I can become Rajesh Khanna fan. At least for his choice of doing movies, indeed good than many actors.
Is the appreciation coming too late? But then as I always say, better late than never. :)
Happy Watching Old Movies! Enjoy... :)

Reengineering...

Hmm, this is right time to do this I felt. So I did it as well. Made amendments in my rule book, dream book, to do list, goals, objectives to be achieved, all the similar kind of things. Now will do only important and useful stuffs. Rest could be done later I feel, so will be doing them then and for now only important things. Have made changes in priority list, less priority stuffs goes back and high comes ahead and will be doing them on this basis. Now I'll not repeat my mistakes or rather you can say that will try to do things in more accurate way then did before. Lessons from past should be learned and wisely try not to repeat the past but change the future. Past is gone and could not be changed but future is still awaiting so let me do something which I've always thought of doing. Probably my last chance to do it so in a way ready to give up everything to achieve those things. Most importantly don't want to die with this regret of not being able to do a thing throughout my life. The pain is unbearable when I have this thought but I think I should keep it in mind always so that I can constantly keep doing things which I want to. Want to do it, if not for anyone but for me or else my soul will not be at peace.Yes, it have that relevance in my life may not be for others but it is that important for me. So I'm the one who need to take efforts as well to get all that I want. Plans are on paper implementation to a certain extent is started, hope could get the continuity, the consistency as they say. I sincerely believe that consistency is a very key part of any thing to be achieved if things are not done consistently, over the period it evaporates and then the result is bound to be negative. So hoping to do them in a way thought.
May, that divine power help me in giving all my sincere efforts towards achieving my goals, dreams, etc... (I never ask thing for free, but to give me the strength to do that much hard work as needed and to keep me on right track so that I can get it on my own efforts)

It's out of order

Doing few things or others expecting them from me is just not fair.
Few things are just out of my order. Can't do them at all. It's not
always possible for me to express my feelings to few people and I feel
that it would not matter to them as well. So why to just show off or
waste it, better to keep few things within it's sometimes a better
option. To show it out make me feel very embarrassing as well. So for
few things I'm just an unexpressive dumbo. Happy being so...

The law of average

Even if you are from the section who is not to be blamed but because you form part of a group where majority are at fault then it stands irrelevant if you are right or wrong! You get averaged off. Your performance as an individual may be appreciable but being part of group you ought to listen to something which is not applicable to you. But then that's the way it goes as well. No one could be blamed for this as well. Average is average it gives the result of majority's performance and sometimes individuals cannot be given importance. Accepting this fact is important though. So if you are a highly bullish performer but still if other major shares are bare then sensex is to show a downward trend. (If talking in financial terms then this example could be very well considered. ;))
Same goes with humans as well.
The law of average is indifferent!

Please don't override!!!!!!

For all those who love others please love them and accept them the way they are. Don't try to make them live the way you see the life. Why is it that everybody want that they as well as others should live life in a rational way. Why?
Just caught this scene from one serial in which the girl and the boy loved each other very much and after few ups and downs finally got married. But the very next day, the boy dies and the girl just dresses in white to this the whole of her family exclaims that she was married for only a day! But the girl simply answers that she only knows that she was married and her husband is no more. That how does it matter as to how long she had been married? The only thing which matters is that her love, her hubby is no more. All the family members are worried to the girls future. But she is contented that she belongs to her husband only.
Now this is the point which I want to make. I know that the Parents love their children and want to see them happy but then why they always think that being with somebody is happiness? Why don't they understand that they should leave the decision on the person facing it. They should not override their decisions on others. If a person want to be happy can't he/she be happy alone? I know it's difficult but still just leave it on them as to what they want to do. Why always it has to be if not this then somebody else thing? (I'm sounding weird? But that's the way it should be.)
If a person is in love with somebody and if they can't get their love somehow or sometimes they lose it in this way then why is it that others want the person to move on. Okay! you should move on in life but why this move on means to get involve with somebody else? If it's not acceptable to them, why others have to force on them? Why they can't live for one person? Why they should always be with somebody live and present? Belonging to one isn't this important? Yes, but why is it conditional on somebody's being alive or dead or their presence or absence? Just leave the decision on the person who need to take the decision. Don't you decide what is good and bad for them. Let them decide what will make them feel happy and contended. Give them time. Same was the story of "I too had a love story" the boy and girl was about to get engaged but the girl meets with an accident a day before the engagement and after passing through very critical situations she dies and the boy even after a year of her death still could not get off from her memories. But the boys parents want him to get married to some girl as they think that he'll be then happy. But the boy feels that she was the only girl whom he had loved and probably could not love again to any other girl this way. So let him decide what happiness means to him and don't tell him what happiness ideally is and should be. But even my friends had this thought that he should have got married to somebody. But when I said that he should do what he feels then they had this dialogue for me that, "my belief should be only what I can do!" so they mean no one can spend their life for one person when the person in presently not with them due to any reason. Don't know if I could do it or not but can't I have different beliefs and act differently? As such we all know what is right and what is wrong but still do we always do things the right way? Have we never done anything wrong as of? Then, why can't people have different beliefs and act differently? As they chose to act differently only because they have such overriding people in their lives and they do things for their happiness. You never know?

Enjoying

Today, no office! Looking at the bad environment and my office being
at main Mumbai. I decided of staying back, to be on safer side and
also heard that trains not working properly as always. Got call from
friends advising not to leave home. They know I'll go to office
blindly not considering factor like all these. Can remember days when
there were those attacks at Taj and I was at CST. And even next day
was to office and saw that the building it self was shut! Called up
boss and he was angry at me for I reached till there! (dekha, meri
sincerity ki toh kisi ko padi hi nahi hai. Huh!) only I know how I
fought with parents and decide to go and finally ended up listening
from boss. Could you imagine this? I hate it the most. Even few days
back got stuck in train because of the rain and had to return back
from mid way after wasting 4 hrs in train. Then there were times when
I got stuck at CST that there were no trains at all available. Had
experienced all the possible horrible situations of travelling to
Mumbai in past 3 years. So for today I thought better I should stay
back then to waste time in attempting. But I just love it. It's so
adventurous, though parents get tense but I always tell them, if
something bad is to happen it'll happen no matter how much precautions
you take. But beyond a point I can't convince them with this theory
of mine. Never mind, as they say Love is blind and no doubt they Love
me. So can do this for them. Enjoying leave. I know for few, all this
is a havoc. After all Life is not fair to all. It's getting proved by
each passing day.
Need to utilise this leave and want to study all that piled up pending
topics. Signing off for now.
Just hope all remain safe and happy.
P.S. : Have many things to say on all this wrong happenings but as on
I think it'll be only waste of time talking on this. As discussing
this will not help anyhow so better not to waste more of time into
useless stuffs. And do what we can.
I mean I need to study.

Should it be on first come, first serve basis?

Loving somebody or doing something for somebody or accepting something
from somebody should it be on first come first serve basis? For
instance, a girl had her birthday and her parents and her boyfriend
both had planned a surprise for her but the boy had to give up for
that moment because the girl had to be with her parents and postponed
the surprise till she is done celebrating it with her family. (just
watched this serial in it such was the situation) and I was wondering,
what may come but family is always the first priority but that was
because the girl didn't knew that her boyfriend had a surprise for
her. So she was happy with her family but had she known about his
plans for her still probably she would have been with the family but
only half heartedly, I feel. Would it be fair then? Why it always
becomes so, that if you have to choose between the two family comes
first? No, I don't have any problem untill it's that they are still
completely with them from mind and body but if you are just with them
for being self then the priority which you are giving is all fake,
isn't it? It's just that you are supposed to hence you are. Given a
choice probably you would have been with both but mostly it's not
possible. Even in todays generation expecting this is too much from
your fate! So choice is to be made and it always goes by default. Uff!
All these dilemma's of life!
But can a person make choice between their spouse and parents, between
their children and spouse. If there is conflict then whom you are
supposed to chose? What should be the basis? Can love be weighted on
time basis or should it be on feelings basis? Can you say that the one
who came first are the one who need to be supported or the one who had
just came but then your love for them is equally intense and hence
they should get the vote? (considering that there is no right or wrong
situation but gap between thoughts. That you can't say that one is
right and other is wrong probably both are right and wrong at their
place!) what will you do then?

Education Open's Door

A mantra

Yesterday, learned this mantra for living life.
It goes like,"don't get drifted by the waves, by the wind but take the controls of your life in your hands." 
It meant, don't let life take you with it but take life where you wish to. Don't flow with the current but flow where you see your destination even if it involves you flowing against it. Don't let life lead your way but take lead of your life in your hands. Don't drive on auto pilot mode but take the controls in your hands. Words might not be same but the meaning was this! Live your life in your way. It'll surely require hard efforts but then don't forget you have only one life. Don't let it go live as you want to. Don't let it pass away with each passing day but live it, nourish it, enjoy it, reach out for things you want and not what others want for you. 
Simply superb mantra. Looking forward to it's implementation into my life. Want to live it the way I want to and not the way others think I should. After all it's my life. They got theirs so let me live mine the way I want to!

Committment...

Promises are meant to be kept forever. No matter how hard it becomes, but think before you promise if you
could keep it or not, but not after promising that you should keep it or not?
You are the one who could give value to your words no one else. So, lets not forget the great saying in hindi. It goes like,"Praan jaye par vachan na jaye."
Promise made once should not be broken but to be fulfilled even if it involves your life taking efforts.
Hardest to do! Let's promise what we can stand to and not merely to please others and
ourselves.
So for me,"PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE KEPT" forever and ever and ever...

People are terrible

This world seriously don't let you live the way you want to. Whatever you do is tagged differently, as if I've asked for their judgement. I am least interested in their views on me but still I try to do things their way and indeed I feel I should have not done it. For instance, if I'm not on any social networking site then there is problem, it means I'm not good at networking, for them it's a must these days. Okay, I'm on one! If I'm on one then they can't believe it firstly, then they wish me to post in some status. Even if I got no thoughts or experience on how it is to be done but still I should. According to them, I'm supposed to be an active player. When I do so, they have to tag me as an addict user. They have to opine themselves on what I say, compulsorily! Then they want me to comment on their status, when I don't they feel I'm rude, when I do, they feel I'm always online to reply them. They want to chat with me. I got no idea how to do that, then they feel I'm giving excuses. Somehow I learn how it is to be done and try to proceed with it willingly or unwillingly. When I'm sharing something important they feel it's too long to read. So I'm supposed to spoon feed them with one liners. When I don't they feel I'm not interested in sharing important stuffs with them.
Why don't people let me do what I want to? They got no right to tell me what I should and what I shouldn't.  This is my life you are not supposed to comment until I ask for. Yes, this is me. I like doing things my own way, let me do so. Better I should have done things always my own way at least it would have satisfied me. But I cannot satisfy them, nor I intend to as of!
Phew, fed up! Exhausted with all this. Seems my decision of remaining me at this place holds good or else life would have been miserable, definitely. I can bet on it. I guess I can find some mind space here. Where in, I'm who I'm and not something what others wish me to be. Can do things my own perfect way.
Happy Writing! :)

All that glitter is not gold

Too much of I've heard about this. now, no more in the state where I could believe in the saying. Rather I will be able to believe in it if they could do something. In and out the T. V. News channels are busy giving updates on Rahul Gandhi and his tour. Fed up of listening all these things since past few days. Media has really lost it. Got no sensible news these days, let it be any normal news channel all are in the race of proving each self biggest fool than other. Literally, I mean it. They are behind the things like anything. Just show once and leave  now! But no, they just stretch as long as possible. Let it be Ash's pregnancy or now Rahul Gandhi's this tour. Everything is hyped than what is needed. Better Rahul do something then probably I'll be interested in knowing what he is up to. Likewise I don't understand why people are so much interested in seeing him as our Prime Minister. As I see they are the one already having all the authority of things to be regulated and implemented so what's the big thing about he being in that role. If he and the Congress were to yield something useful to the country they would have. But it's fairly going no where. As the expectations were
much more than their actual performance. Economy is diverting like anything from the budgeted figure of growth. Inflation index has no limits. Things are not going the way they should have. So instead of meeting people and giving speeches better you come on the field and do something. Let your work speak about you than you merely ending up speaking about the things you would do. And they merely remain as words and no implementations. Then whats the use. Had he or his party done something outstanding? Can't remember.  Instead they are still so slow about the Lokpal bill. No more into sorting out the issues but looking people suffer. If they will not get food and water for a day then they will know the pain and efforts which others are taking. That too for the general public. Politicians are all same. No one had ever standed out differently.

Can't let go.

My helplessness that I just can't let go the misunderstanding which
could take place between me and anyone else. I just can't get on with
it untill everything is sorted out. Clearly.
But then many a times it seems only I'm the one interested in this
procedure. Why it has to be me always? Why am I the one to go and
start this procedure? Even if it's their fault, still I should
approach them and tell why I felt bad. Is this fair? Am I only one who
need them or that they have started taking my behavior for granted and
know that I'll come to them.
But then they need me or not. They might not mind leaving things in
mess. They may not take it seriously or any other thing but then I'm
the one who is helpless in this regard. Can't get on with it so
easily. As I prefer that things should be discussed openly soon
possible and before it's too late. As the silence grows the distances
increases continuously. But this is not always possible. Sometimes
people are not approachable for me to explain things which went wrong
unintentionally and then you have to live with that insecure feeling.
May be they could get off with it, but I seriously can't and such
things never get out of my head. Though I still try to behave as
normal possible but still only I know the pain inside me. So it's
better to break the silence and get off with the small issues soon
possible. Because if not sorted these issues can become big. Silence
speaks more than words could. But this silence can creat great
distance between two hearts which cannot be linked after a reasonable
time. So before it's too late just get off your ego's and sort them
out, let it be their mistake. Finally what's important is that you are
back together happily.

Confused about...

...the core interest! What is it?

Core interest per se what I mean is, the so called self interest into a carrier field. No I'm not confused about the whole sum carrier but in the sub-interest of what I've chosen. Being a Chartered Accountant you can do many things, as discussed by my teachers and read by me about it on different carrier counselling articles. There are majorly 3 fields which can be looked into.

1. The monopolistic, TAXATION is one of the important and common field. As a chartered you can get into it easily and survival is comparatively non competitive here.
2. FINANCE, in it also there are many more sub fields. But I would for the time being consider finance as a whole. Here there is lots of competition as there are many other professionals who get into finance, like an MBA in finance is trained and taught finance with much deep knowledge than a CA. (this is what I've heard. Personally I don't know much about it. But they say that MBA personnel perform great in it and are tough competitors.)
3. AUDITING, again monopolistic. Here mostly C.A.'s are only preferred. :)
there may be many other things that a C.A. may do but I'm considering majorly only these three.

Now the very first problem is, I like studying all these subjects academically. Seriously, believe me I do! Then I love doing audits, when I'm on an audit I feel like, keep working. Then my work is the only thing I can see. I love doing Audits. And from day one, I loved it as a subject as well. In fact I read my PCC module all topics of Auditing and asked so many doubts to SS Sir (he was in auditing profession, and he use to share his practical work experience with us and it was best time when I heard from him about all those things. He's simply one of the best persons I've ever met!)
Secondly talking about finance, I love this subject as well. I read module of this subject as well. I love the things taught and if I'm stuck with any concept I just can't let it go. I go back home and practice it continuously until I'm through with it. It's a subject full of concepts and different theories, which I love reading and understanding. But then I'm not good at understanding the things at first go, where as there are so many people at class who can. In fact, they can many a times solve sums on their own that too nearest correct answer. (But then of course that does not mean that I can't go for finance as it's just matter of practice which I need to do. As I know that I'm a slow learner and have to revise stuffs to get them permanently in me. Matter of efforts nothing else.) For you to understand finance you need to have the understanding of economics. Economics is what I have loved since my 9th standard. It's the most logical thing to ever understand. Just love the way theories are invented and quite logically they work as well. So economics is not a problem. Though it need you to have good basic knowledge of it. But then as I have interest in it, I can easily gain it.
3. Last but not least Taxation. Tax is what I do practically at work. (Audit and Tax exposure I have at my work, but nothing in finance :( ) And subject per se I never hated Tax, like few people loving finance do ;). I like it, like any other subject. In fact, study it with interest as it helps me practically. As I've heard C.A.'s have monopoly in it. So it can be a bit easy to get into it and then carrying on with it.
...as these days I'm listening mostly all my friends saying that they like SFM. Hmm, so there's a lot of competition here. Plus MBA's, so I fear a bit if I'll be able to survive well? As for practical knowledge into finance, people mostly go for an Industrial Training (IT), where they work with banks and corporates as well. But mostly Banks, if you want to go for banking. Banking is the main Industry for Finance people. Many of those who say, they love SFM are doing IT with big Banks. (How great! I feel) I too wanted to but could not. :(  So this give me more insecurity that they got this advantage. They know what it actually mean getting into finance, where as I only know a drop of an ocean about it's practical implementations. I get a negative mark here! ;(

About taxation, I got no more thoughts. I can go for it, but then by default all go for Tax. Even if I chose it, then it'll be just a monopolistic approach nothing else. Don't like doing things which every other person do. But then can't leave it for this reason as well! It's like, if nothing else then this kind of thing for me. As I said, I neither hate it nor like it too much, just that I feel normal about it.
Lastly, Auditing. I've not heard for this option from anyone else than S.S. Sir, of course he was the one who was in this stream practically but still all other teachers talk about Tax or Finance only! I don't know why? Nor have I heard any of my classmates talking about it. Now this make me feel insecure, and make me wonder if it's not a good option. (I Seriously need a discussion with S.S. Sir on this!)

Then as a solution to my confusion sometimes I think that I'll go for what I get. But then that is not the correct solution. Because you need to develop the skills from now onwards. And if I'll drop myself into something on get basis, then that will mean that I know all of them in bits. Where as there will be others who might have analysed their core interest and would have had done practically much more than me and again that would be the expectation in the market. And I'll not be able to survive like this.

So the requirement is to recognise the core interest and develop it over the period so that by the time we go for it we'll not be raw but would need only finishing and not moulding.
Need to give more time and effort to think on it and will have to decide on one thing. Let's see if I could get my core interest or remain confused!

Double standard...

I really can't understand why all of them have to crib in the name of the articleship. You are suppose to do it. So just do it, you have to whether you be sad about it or happy. So better be happy! But no we want to gain sympathy from our parents, friends, teachers that we are treated badly and that we are working very hard. Then mind you this is just a promo and main movie is still remaining, so see what will happen to you then or you'll end up cribbing their as well. No doubt you'll. When it comes to dedication and committments human beings find it hard. As there will be more responsibility and we hate taking responsibilities. If you are fired by your boss then don't you think that he expected something from you and since you shattered his expectations he is bound to get angry. What if you would be in their place won't you get your work done by person whom you pay. Common logic. Secondly, no one will spoon feed. So untill you show that interest in the work assigned to you how can you expect to get lucrative assignments. Just impress them by your performance they got no personal grudges with you. Why will they make you feel sad? Any idea? Your parents also scold you when you do something wrong, but then you don't say bad about them! Why so? Stop cursing your principal as he should be given same respect as any teacher, they are also one same as teachers they also teach us, of course if you happen to respect teachers only then.
I always feel that my principal is superb there are so many things which I've learned from him and want to  learn many more. You can learn only when you have that interest in learning and also when you head is empty to put in something and not ful of complaints and hate.
So respect them as they are your mentor. One day you will realise it...

Red Rose!

This is title of an old movie, Rajesh Khanna starer. I was just flipping through the channels that I came across a movie on the cable channel. It was this movie, "Red Rose". Don't know what attracted my attention that I forgot about the serial, the daily soap (not that I watch daily but sometimes) which I was watching and started watching this movie. It was full of thriller. Mostly I don't like watching thrillers, my heart can't bear it. I feel like it'll come out of my mouth. In fact I hate horror movies. Never make an attempt to watch them. Yeah! You may tag me as a weak hearted but so am I can't help it.
Back to the movie, it was really thrilling and I was all alone watching it that too at night! OMG, and I can't believe that I'm still alive...? Yes, I'm. May be because it didn't had the ghost thing in it. As I watched it from the mid part so don't know where it started from but then from where I started was also a good part to start from and a person like me who is a big fan of movies can make an attempt of understanding the movie from any part, isn't it?
First I thought, what a crap movie it is? But then as I continued with it, it got more and more interesting and was full of suspense. I was horrified but then the main theme attracting me and keeping me stay and watch.
Things I was able to get from the movie were:
1. Don't judge a person from the very single moment. Circumstances
make the difference in the character of every individual.
2. Not every thing goes the way it looks from outer naked eyes. Don't
always think rationally.
3. Even men can be molested that too by women. Yes, somewhere it is
true. Though rare but it does happens.
4. Never have a feeling of taking a revenge on somebody. At least not
of a population for a bad act done by few people belonging to that
population. As not always samples represent the whole population.
5. As we say don't be regional bias so should be said for gender as
well. Don't be gender bias.
6. Love is to give all of you without expecting much from others. It's
belonging to a person for a lifetime.
Wow, could you imagine just saw half of the movie and could learn so
many things.
A good watch!

About LUCK!

My belief about luck is that it does exist! (of course, it 110% exists!) But does luck supports the prepared? (prepared means the hard worker, this term is given by somebody) then my answer would be, luck is random and without any bias. It picks people randomly and supports them in getting what they want.
Have I been lucky as of? Well, don't know? If I would to look at lower points like having a good family, financial condition, support from family in letting me do what I wanted to and want to, health wise (about being physically normal), being only daughter between two sons, have good and supportive friends and other people around, have got good workplace where I'm quite satisfied with my work and assignments, etc etc... Then probably I may say that, yes I'm a lucky person to have these things in my life. But if I were to look and compare my haves with the desires then, well then I guess there are things which completely went out of my way and made me feel that I'm not the so called very lucky one. I wanted to clear my PCC in first attempt not that I didn't put in hard efforts but at the last moment my S.Y. Bcom exams got clashed with PCC exams and even though I tried hard to survive but then could not take that pressure of giving two exams in a day 11 to 2 SY and 2 to 5 PCC. Though I didn't quit but yes, did not perform well. Results were already know to me and so was the reality. In the second attempt I got caught by severe Jaundice and could not prepare well, still gave the attempt but this time I was cleared my second group. But then that's not called luck that was purely my dedication that I studied both groups in about one month and even though I was too weak to study long hours but I tried. I can remember few of my friends or rather classmates who said that they had performed badly and still managed to clear in their first attempt. That's called luck! Then I eagerly wanted to do Industrial Training (IT) but could not as I haven't cleared PCC up to at least 9 remaining months of my articleship period, people are doing it. If I would have been at least a bit lucky then I would have at least cleared in my second attempt but then even that didn't happened. And I'm in the last year of my articleship even though I love the work I do at office but still for few reasons I wanted to do IT.
If I would have been lucky may be I would have got these things without all these strong efforts or rather at least after giving in so much it would not have resulted in to "NIL".
Depends on what you look into to feel lucky!

The namesake

I've never called out my name to refer to other in this life as on. I mean that I've never ever met a person having the name that of mine.
Does anyone feel good having a unique name which is mostly not heard of in and out? I just wonder about it. But then I seriously feel that what an odd feeling you would get when you find a person of the same name as yours and you have to call out for him or her? Or when you have a person of the same name as your classmate or office colleague, then it would be difficult to identify who is being called out? As I said, that
I've never experienced this as on so even with this very thought I get odd feeling. But then I do love my name let it be rare or not so common, I belong to it and it has given me an identity as on and will be with me throughout my life. In fact I love because don't have to share the common name.
Recently I came across this concept where in people can change their name. How odd? Is what I felt when I first heard of it. Having recently come across a phase where my cousin had a baby and I remember how excited she was before to decide as to what name she should give her. Being very close to each other she asked for my help and I tried to help her in finding a good name for my niece. I gave her list of names with the meanings and then after a discussion with her in-laws they finally decided for the best possible name. And I feel that, same might have been the case with all our parents. For few things in life all human beings are to behave mostly in same manner. As they say, the rational behavior. So let it be my parents or yours they would have put in those efforts and they would have also thought much before keeping your name the one which you   formally carried. So how could you just in a way decide it being bad/unfit? These days people literally got no sense of respect left for any one and not a percent of respect for others feelings. Others! Are your parents just others? Yes, if you can't be their how could they be your?
This is what it mean by such behavior. You don't even feel like being called what you have been since so long and now that you think you are grown up you don't seem to have even that sense that what is morally right and what is wrong. What your parents would feel that you aren't happy with the name they had given you with so many hopes. Some times people lose out all the logic.
Well let it be odd or even, common or uncommon, people could remember it or not, even though it's misspelled most of the times but still I love my name and it's all mine!

S. T. R.

...few relations are born temporary. Even though you love being into
it or like the way it is, but you should not forget that sooner or
later it'll end. End in the sense that we won't be able to be with
those people in the long run or probably we may never meet them ever
the way we do now. For instance, friends. They are now part of our
life but sooner or later they will be parted and even the best of them
will be forgotten or may be very very rarely remembered. Lack of
personal touch takes it all away. As soon as you stop meeting people
personally the relations starts deteriorating with the passage of
time. You may take hard efforts to stay in touch by phone calls or
chats but then where you lose the common platform or common things the
talks get restricted to few things and then you end up asking "aur
bata kya chal raha hai?" The other person would be in the same state
"kuch khaas nahi, aur tu bata?"
Few relations don't have even this much scope. They are discarded
completely in a second. Suddenly moments come where you realise that
it's all over. That's it, this was the only time we had with us to be
together or can meet each other or see and listen to eachother now
it's over forever. It was Short Term Relation (S. T. R.) You may
remember them forever but can't say if you'll be ever remembered? This
is also a fact where in a person means a lot to you but may be you are
just a crowd for him or her. They may probably know you from your face
but not even know your name. But they might have influenced your life
in a major way where in you'll remember them forever and throughout
your life.
Some facts of life are these few thoughts. Life isn't fair to everyone.
You have to live with few of these odd and bitter facts, helplessly.

Isn't it logical?

Received this as a forward message:
"don't share your top secrets with anyone because if you yourself
can't keep your secret then how can you expect other to keep it for
you?!"
Hmm... True, we only know what to expect from others and not what our expectations should be from ourselves. Secondly, don't know why people want to share every damn thing with others. Why can't we have some thoughts or feelings inside us? Why you want other person to know everything about you? It's not that you should not share anything but not everything, that you may later regret on as to why you shared it after you are judged on it by them. You never know who could think what or react how?

Heyy Babyy!

Oh! I just love small babies, like anything. Recently one of my cousin sister visited me with her 2.5 months old baby girl (my niece). Oh! She was really baby doll I would say. Real darling. I just love kids so much and she was so young, cute, fair, delicate, soft and most importantly very innocent and friendly nature and not the one who would not leave her mother for a second. But she was very open to everyone. Most of the time she would sleep, of course 2.5 months babies sleep a lot! But I wanted to play with her. :(
I love to pat the babies when they are sleeping and when they get disturbed in between of their sleep and when you pat them they are back in their dreamy world. So by the time she was sleeping I was gazing her and was waiting for her to wake up. After she was awaken I took her in my arms, throughout the day she was in my hands till she was at my place. I didn't kept her down even a second. I love such happy, friendly and smiling kids. Who enjoy your company. I was continuously talking to her as if she could understand  everything. But kids love it when you talk to them even though it would be all rubbish to them. So talk to them they love it. So was I doing. I got many pics clicked of us together. She was for a while with me but her memories will be with me forever. My angel... :* this one only for her...

Adore yourself

I love to pamper myself and especially by dressing well. I love to look good, not for anyone to appreciate but for myself to love when I see my reflection in the mirror. Not that I apply tons of make up in fact none. But you can look gorgeous even without makeup! That's called natural beauty. Yup, you can surely. So all those who love looking gorgeous, please continue doing so.
After all girls are made to look beautiful ;)
But then I'm not saying that looking good from outer end is only what make person attractive but that's a way you can attract. As I believe in this saying that,"Beauty is different for different people." It should be in your heart. But you can't deny that eyes have direct connection with heart. If you like the person from
his or her looks you'll be interested in knowing that person personally. Though that should not be the only criterion but that's one point.
Rest theories apart, what I intend to say is do things for yourself, look good for yourself. Let it be anything but do it for your own happiness and satisfaction. :)